IN THE RING OF CONFUSION

Posted: July 13, 2015 in Uncategorized

What will you do when the time that you’ve been waiting for so long has come while you’re still stuck in the middle of an opportunity?

Would you give up the first one?

Would you take the risk of the new one?

Or would you just gave up both?

It has been a year ago when I started working in this job. At first,  thought  won’t be able to stay this long but because of my colleagues, every single day got easier and happier. I found new family in them.

Working in this company gave me so much opportunity. In less than a year I was trained into three different accounts which expose me to a wider field of experience. There were lot of opportunities came and passed by during my stay which never bothered me because I still enjoy everything I do.

Until this happened. Everything changed. t seemed the working environment I loved and enjoyed before became toxic. I started to find it hard going to work every single day. I started to have no care on scorecard. I started to lose the eagerness to go beyond extra mile of service. And worst, I started thinking easiest and fastest ways to escape in this changed world.

I just don’t want to do this job anymore.

I was a Mass Communication graduate so I started looking job where I can practice my expertise. I passed my resume in every job opening I searched on the internet. But the luck seemed not so into me. Another month had passed and I’m still trapped in this job.

What am I’m gonna do? 

I stopped looking for a job. I took a rest in hoping that there is a great escape. I am now on training for my third skill set. I really enjoy learning new things but I don’t to see myself staying for few more months in this job. I still excel on the class, I got higher grades on exams and role plays. That’s a good thing but not a consideration to stay.

While I was sharing my frustrations to someone, he suddenly opened that their company is looking for a writer and public information and events coordination. That was the same position he offered when I was on the earlier months of my job.

As far as I remember this was my exact words to him when he offered me that job the very firts time: “I really want to be in that job, that’s actually my dream job but I’ve already started this and I enjoy what I am doing right now. Maybe after a year ago, if that same position is open again, I really want to grab that.”

And maybe I have luck in my tongue. This is what ‘m waiting for, this will be my escape.

I became excited and wanted to be there instantly. This is it. A job with great compensation, a Monday to Friday shift, and I will be ale to practice my degree. I’M REALLY INTO IT. I WANT THIS!

But no work is perfect. There is no regularization. If they love your performance your contract will be renewed but if not, they are going to let you go. In short, there is no stability.

So now, I’m in the middle of weighing things. I really don’t know what to do. I need to make a firm decision and face the risk of choosing either staying or leaving for good.

Oh, God help me!

And have you completely forgotten this word of encouragement that addresses you as a father addresses his son? It says,

“My son, do not make light of the Lord’s discipline,
    and do not lose heart when he rebukes you,
because the Lord disciplines the one he loves,
    and he chastens everyone he accepts as his son.”[a]

Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as his children. For what children are not disciplined by their father?

If you are not disciplined—and everyone undergoes discipline—then you are not legitimate, not true sons and daughters at all.

Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it. How much more should we submit to the Father of spirits and live!

10 They disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, in order that we may share in his holiness.

11 No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.

-Hebrews 12:5-11 (NIV)

Source: http://www.biblegateway.com

Every place has something to offer. And food is one of the best things a place could remind you of.

Last Saturday my friend and I went to ABS-CBN Store in ELJ Compund to buy a Kid Kulafu Jacket to support the most-awaited Pacquiao-Mayweather fight on the next day. It wasn’t my first time walking in there but it was the first time that food store caught my attention.

With it’s ambiance and wall decorations, how can’t you not be attracted? The place itself pull your feet, attract your eyes, and seduce your mouth. I thought I could resist but I fail. So my friend and I decided to try the store after buying the jacket.

The store has variety, from cupcakes to heavy meals. You can satisfy your all-day food cravings. Vanilla Cupcake Bakery and Cafe is located in Mother Ignacia St., Quezon Avenue, Quezon City near ABS-CBN ELJ Compound. The food ranges from Php80.00 to Php300.00, surely suits your budget.

Here are some of the photos:

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So guys, what are you waiting for? Can’t wait you guys to try it and share the same experience.

It is always incredible to see how sunset even sunrise can make everything so beautiful and romantic.

That is why I love to capture those surreal moments where everything is real and sincere.

Here are few of shots I love the most :)

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Quezon City Memorial Circle

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Quezon City Memorial Circle

Going from one place to another is my thing. It feels great to experience new things in new places with new people, with your random friends or with someone special or sometimes… just with yourself.

And for this weekend, we have experience the beauty, thrill and adventure of the “HEART of ASIA: Puerto Galera” in Oriental, Mindoro.

From Quezon City, it was a 2 hours bus ride to Batangas port and then almost 1 hour boat ride to the island then another ride for about 30 minutes to the White Beach proper. There were affordable hotels and rooms where you could spend the rest of your stay. People were so accommodating and fun. Food stalls and souvenir shops were everywhere. You won’t run out of choices.

Aside from the usual swimming activity, you could also try para sailing, banana boat ride, island hopping, snorkeling and jetski. Boredom will never be an issue, the choice is all yours.

of course, the fun doesn’t end there. When the sun sets, party lights and music are everywhere. You have to move, groove and shake. PARTY ALL NIGHT! Well, as for me, that was the best part of our stay. :)

Everything was just so perfect and fun. Here are some of the pictures taken at the island. It is really more fun in the Philippines! Enjoy browsing!

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I’m feeling nostalgic.
That surreal beauty lost it’s magic
You were once that song in “all of me”
But now fade away instantly

That late night to morning talk
That slow and careful walk
Where had it been?
It was awhile since that last scene

What else can I hide?
Your presence is like a river so wide
Holding me here and back
Confusing me until I lost my track

Sun already set, and now it rise
Waking me up to that endless cries
Clouds moving here and there
Shaking this feeling to something elsewhere

When the rain started to fall
It washed away my all in all
Madness over that raging splash
Crumpled and trampled the art to the ground of trash

What I have been missing?
Have you decided and left me hanging?
Four seasons had past
I almost believe that what we had will last

I have been searching something in my heart
I wanted to retrieve that piece of you who already move apart
Giving up is not a word to me
It is not even an option I see

But when that silence slapped me on my sleep
I suddenly fell in the deepest of the deep
Thousand times of reeling pain
Is everything I gain.

Ask me how hard it was?
It was like counting those little wild grass
Keep holding on to nothing
Is still a great experience, darling

Now that I have reached the farthest of the far
Let me surrender a white flag in this long war
Enough of the what, when, where and why
And someday, I could say… hello, goodbye.

It took me weeks before your eyes met mine
That moment was like a smooth, graceful pouring wine.
You smiled and I hide
My heart rolled out in a huge tide

Days later, we had that little conversation
Which was the sweetest sensation
You were talking to me
And that sound was a lovely sound of buzzing bee.

That one day, when I felt the touch of your hand
I suddenly traveled in a place called wonderland
Sweet caress of that inch of care
Made my heart and mind accept the love dare.

Butterflies filled my eyes
Every single day, it flies me to the sky
Wandering in the lost hope of love
Dreaming a freedom of smooth sailing dove.

What ways can I do to stop falling in love with you
Days are getting brighter and even better when I’m all around you
Your eyes, your lips, your touch, your smile and even your voice
All of it… pulling and telling me that I don’t have a choice.

Time passing by, and can’t put you out of my mind
Your acceptance and appreciation is all I wanna find
If this is craziness and weirdness you called
Well, I guess it is a thing I always want to hold

There is one thing I always wanted to ask
But it seems it is a wild and drastic task
I can’t wait to hear an answer
But your silence is a great pretender.

“Please”… is just another word left unsaid
River of tears had already shed
After everything felt and said
Now tell me… that everything is JUST A FEELING I had.

Your gentleness softens my heart
Every single care you shows draw me close to your part
Words of encouragement
A bull’s eye to my entire fulfillment

Those glimpse has now became stare
The sounding pound of feelings is now unaware
The innocence of heart was caught and trapped in the ring of confusion
And ended up asking for a million answers to a one definite question

Day by day it is digging deeper
I even tried to manipulate this heart not to become bitter
The resistance of my consciousness can’t take it anyway
‘Cause your breathless presence lingers every single day

What a crazy thing has happened to me
This is not what I ever wanted it to be
But you already captured that cloud of emotions
Which eventually turned my illusions into realizations

You, why jailed my heart
If we’re always be an inch apart?
You are near to me yet so far
Why left my heart wandering in the middle of love war?

Changes

Posted: September 7, 2014 in Uncategorized

Everything seems to be okay
All I’ve been thinking we are walking on the same way
You were exceptionally kind and gentle
But why it seems you have no one to settle?

Every single day of togetherness
Is slowly ending like a mess
The idea of starting new
Was left out of the blue

The feelings once loved and treasured
Why now came to an end and lost its beautiful gestures?
What pain could be more painful
Than a feeling became wasteful

Not all things seem to last
Even your kindness has to pass
And now that you’re happy with her
I was left alone and trying to be even better.

God’s forgiveness is beyond measure. Regardless of what are our sins or how many times we stumble and fall, His love never changes and still reserving those tons of patience and care for us. God’s mighty hands are always wide open to give the warmest embrace to His lost children.

Chat  —  Posted: August 10, 2014 in faith, ministry, music, religion
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