Ang Sakit, Bes!

Ang sakit.
Ang sakit-sakit pala.
Lagi ka ng umiiwas ng tingin
Presensiya ko’y tila naging hangin.

Sa bawat distansiya ng iyong paglayo
Hindi namalayang ika’y matagal ng lumiko.
Kahit isang bakas ng kahapon
Tuluyan mo ng binura at itinapon.

Ang sakit.
Ang sakit-sakit pala talaga.
Alaala mo, alaala natin
Ay kasing ningning pa rin ng isang bituin
Ngunit iyon na lamang ay sa aking paningin
Dahil ika’y nagmadaling lahat ay limutin.

Ang sakit.
Ang sakit-sakit pala talaga.
Sobra.
Sa isang iglap ika’y lumisan
Kahit salitang paalam ay hindi mo man lang nagawang iiwan.

Psalm 100: A Psalm. For giving grateful praise”

Shout for joy to the Lord, all the earth.
    Worship the Lord with gladness;
    come before him with joyful songs.
Know that the Lord is God.
    It is he who made us, and we are his[a];
    we are his people, the sheep of his pasture.

Enter his gates with thanksgiving
    and his courts with praise;
    give thanks to him and praise his name.
For the Lord is good and his love endures forever;
    his faithfulness continues through all generations.

Pink Polo 2016

In celebration of Breast Cancer Awareness month, Ghantoot Racing and Polo Club  organized ADCB Pink Polo 2016 last November 4 in the vast area of GRPC.

There is a massive number of participants, from exhibitors, sponsors and visitors. There was a diverse culture and nationalities gathered as one. It was a fun and long day.

Our company Shine Tv Production was the official production team of GRPC which also allowed me to enjoy and be part of it. 🙂

 

I’ll be looking forward to next year’s event 🙂

 

To stay POSITIVE is …

It has been a hell of a week.

All the things happening around is such a mess. I am starting to lose my mind. If I can only close my eyes and make it all disappear like it never happened.

I don’t know why I feel so sad, lazy, distracted and add other negative adjectives that you can think of. I really don’t know why. I find it hard to sleep at night, I even find it hard to think properly.

I’ve tried to look in the mirror every time I take a bath before going to work. I’ve been trying to figure out and at least see what is really happening to me. And as I look each day, it seems like my reflection is EMPTY and DRY. 

I’ve tried to look closely, I’ve noticed the tears running down like river.
I’ve tried to open my ears, I’ve heard the desperate scream.
And I started to ask, what is happening? What is really going on?

I found myself crying in the corner, crying at the top of my lungs.

My tears started to run out. I need to get up and ready myself to work. As I stepped out of the bathroom, I know damn who cares what you are going through.

I wear my best self-defense, smile. It helps me a lot. It helps me survive in a day. It keeps me going. It keeps me away from drama. It makes me look okay, at least.

As I continue to feel this strange feeling of sadness in me, I’ve been trying to still look on the brighter side. I still look forward to the beauty of the sun as it rise, like this is a new day to hope for. I’ve been trying to still appreciate the air that I breathe and even the wind that smoothly kisses my hair and skin. Optimism gives hope, at least.

But to stay in the manner of smiling and hoping is such a heavy rock that I keep on pushing. I am running out of strength sometimes but who else gonna be there for me? If I don’t help my self, to where and what would I end?

I know it will be a long and tough process but I need to keep going. The world doesn’t need to know everything about me but I should know myself.I should know that I still can give a good damn fight. That I can still figure it out one day. That I need to keep going…

to keep going!

US

Two different people
Two different worlds apart
barely know each other
Doesn’t have an idea to where is the road to forever

When his and her comets collide
The universe showered love like a river so wide
An arrow pierced their her hearts as one
And the journey of love has begun

They still have a long way to run
Like how much they love the rising and setting of the sun
It comes every single day
Like a promise and commitment that will surely stay

Her head rested on his shoulder
Their fingers closed to each other
Their eyes found peace at the waves of the ocean
And now their hearts sealed as one.

Take it E-A-S-Y

3 long years had passed since I got my Bachelor’s Degree. It was one of the best things happened to me. One of the greatest blessings I will always be grateful.

The most common thing people think, having aces on your transcript of record gives you an advantage of finding a better job. Which I am also guilty of. I thought reaching my goal in the media industry would not be as hard as I think of.

But I was wrong.

When I started looking for a job and having a lot of interviews, only then I realized, school records is not as important as gold. Yes, it affects your application but performance is the key.

Honestly, I had a hard time looking for a job in line with my chosen profession. I really wanted to pursue my writing, so I never had other target aside from all the media companies in my country. I had interviews but I always fail. Yes, I failed.

It was like a knife pierced to my heart.

I thought all my hopes will be gone. I thought it would be easy to just give up and accept defeat, but realization hit me like thunder. I am not even on the quarter part of my journey.

Since then, I started again. I composed my thoughts and myself.

Motivation always comes from within. If you don’t trust yourself, how other people will trust you, right? And that became my mantra. Since then, I started keeping in my mind not to be hard on myself. Take it easy. 

Right now, I am already 23 and still have a long way to run. I am an Account Executive in a Production and Advertising company, well not in the field of writing, but I guess it is not bad. What matters most is the art of writing is still in my heart. I keep on writing and reading. I still want to pursue my dream of becoming a writer but I guess the good Lord says, it is not yet the right time my dear. And I put all my trust in Him, he knows way best.

There are times I get frustrated and want to just skip the process but again, take it easy. Enjoy and live in the moment. It is not bad wanting more but we all need to undergo the process. It is along the way we will know what are the things needed for us to get there, to our destinations, to the fulfillment of our dreams.

So for now, let us not hurry. Life is too precious to be wasted.  Don’t let your struggles take away that beautiful dream inside you. It is not an easy journey but every part of it has a relevant part to your success.

Let us keep on dreaming. Keep on moving forward until the day we didn’t noticed that what we aiming is already placed in our hands.

See you there!