Mahal kita.
Mahal pa rin kita kahit may mahal ka ng iba.
Paulit-ulit.
Pilit ng pilit.
Kahit sobrang sakit.

Hindi kaya ng pusong iba ang naisin
pagkat sa puso koý ikaw pa rin

Kay tagal ng lumipas
Oras.
Araw.
Buwan.
Ngunit tila ikaý nananatiling nariyan.

Alaala moý sariwa
Tila pagningning ng mga tala
Magkahalong say at sakit
Ang sa puso koý humahagupit

Tama. Ayaw ko na.
Ngunit akoý walang magawa
Hindi magawang ikawý limutin
Kahit gaano katinding sakit ang sapitin

Pagkat ikaý aking mahal
At itoý tila magtatagal
Susubukan na ikaý limutin
Ngunit hindi maipapangakong itoý tutupdin.

Is there anything bothering you? Is there anything that you have done wrong? Is there anything that squeeze your heart and make you feel worthless? Are you afraid of the consequences? Are you afraid of what God has to say about it? Are you feeling hopeless at all?

Psalm 51 tells us how God accepts a heart more than willing to repent and renew thy faith. God’s grace is new every morning, it is never ending. He hears all our cry of forgiveness and never blind to what we are going through. So whatever you have in your heart and mind, lift it up to God and let Him take a seat in your life. He forgives those who desires forgiveness.

“PSALM 51

Have mercy on me, O God,   according to your unfailing love;according to your great compassion blot out my transgressions.

2 Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin.

3 For I know my transgressions, and my sin is always before me.

4 Against you, you only, have I sinned and done what is evil in your sight; so you are right in your verdict and justified when you judge.

5 Surely I was sinful at birth, sinful from the time my mother conceived me.

6 Yet you desired faithfulness even in the womb; you taught me wisdom in that secret place.

7 Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.

8 Let me hear joy and gladness; let the bones you have crushed rejoice.

9 Hide your face from my sins and blot out all my iniquity.

10 Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

11 Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me.

12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

13 Then I will teach transgressors your ways, so that sinners will turn back to you.

14 Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God, you who are God my Savior, and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.

15 Open my lips, Lord, and my mouth will declare your praise.

16 You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it; you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.

17 My sacrifice, O God, is broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart you, God, will not despise.

18 May it please you to prosper Zion, to build up the walls of Jerusalem.

19 Then you will delight in the sacrifices of the righteous,    in burnt offerings offered whole; then bulls will be offered on your altar.

Amen. Amen.

In the darkness, I can see Him brightly shining
In the crowd, I can definitely identify Him
In the silence, I can hear His voice sweetly singing
In sorrow, I can feel His comfort overflowing
In triumph, I can feel His heart celebrating
And in trouble, I can feel His mighty hands protecting
…there is nothing I could wish for, than living a life with my SAVIOR!

Your presence is very hard to find
From time to time, you are swirling over my mind
When you are in front of me
My words of love suddenly flee

Every time you came near
I can’t stop my heart to be in fear
Fear or loosing you
Fear of falling too

Your smile is an innocent assassin
It kills my system again and again
Your poison slowly makes me faint-heated
And hopelessly devoted

Why I could not resist  your stare?
If you have nothing to spare
My mind keeps on saying “give it up”
But my heart insist “do not give up”

I don’t know what’s the matter with you
I just felt it out of the blue
You came in
And my heart welcomes you in

Now, I cannot let you go
You are the one who made me feel so
Just give me some glance
Or even an owe of chance

In the most limited time
I’ll do my best to make you mine
Let my love shine
And be in front of the line.

It is December again and everyone is already excited on how to celebrate this long season.

Every street and houses even churches and buildings has their own unique Christmas decorations which makes the night so bright.

Oh… what a beautiful scene <3 How I wish every day is a Christmas to celebrate. That would be a wonderful place to live in.

So now, I know everyone has their own Christmas lists and wishes. We are now busy preparing and planning for this season of love and giving. We still have few more weeks before the day, so let’s make the most out of every second, minute and day. For sure this will be a tiring one but will always be a time of peace, break, love, joy and giving.

May we have a bountiful Christmas season.

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Sometimes, you need to experience the reeling pain caused by someone you love. You’ll feel the heaviness thumping inside you. You’ll see how much tears you’ll shed. You’ll hear the worst person you can be but at the end of all those heartaches, you’ll see how far your love can go for the people who means life to you. You’ll realize how their love can heal every broken pieces of you because that is what family can do. Loving you on your best much more on your worst.

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Let’s continue to pray for the mourning people of Paris. Let’s continue to pray for their safety and may they find comfort in every support given. May the good Lord give them peace as they face the this nightmare.

People need the Lord.

I’m going to walk on this road again
The feeling is now far different
I can’t feel the air
I can’t hear the noise
I can’t see the colors
There’s nothing left but emptiness.

I step on the platform
People are rushing in
Someone stepped on me
Someone bumped into me
They recklessly passed on me

I walked again
I stood on that same spot
The very first time I cried in front of you
The very first time I indirectly say how much I’m going to miss you
The very first time I expressed my love for you

I ran fast
I want to escape the feeling
I want to hide the pain

My heart is thumping endlessly
My eyes can’t stop the shed of tears
I’m about to fall…

Once again.
I forced my eyes to see things clear
I look around
I was lost
I was alone

Empty.
Broken.

I guess…

It will never be the same again
You will never walk with me
You will never talk to me
You will never laugh nor cry with me
You will never protect me
You will never hold my hand

You’ will never be there for me
And worst, we will never be the same again.
Never again.

Another month had passed. A new chapter to look for, new adventure to enjoy and new challenges to overcome.

Let your past be your guide to be a better version of yourself. Strive harder to have a better and well-lived future.

May we have all the positivity and see the beauty of life in its finest.

Hello, October. Have a great days ahead!

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I’ve been in the state of depression for over a month now.

There are times, when I want myself to be all alone and just cry it out loud. My heart and mind is carrying tons of depressive thoughts which most of the time consumes me. I just don’t know what to do.

There are times when I’m in the middle of my work, I want to scream and cry again. It feels like my eyes never runs out of tears. I’m feeling its heaviness coming from my mind then flowing directly to my heart and makes life lonelier. I really don’t know what to do.

Then, there are times when I just want to stop breathing, when I just want my life to be taken away so I don’t need to suffer at all.

I don’t have someone to hold.

I don’t have someone to listen.

I don’t have someone to care.

Am I all alone in this chapter of my life?
Every day is a battle I’m facing. I was sent out in a war without an armor. Blood is all over my body, every arrow pierced in me, makes it harder for me to breathe. Will I survive another minute? Or even second of this day? Will all my wounds be healed and forgotten? How long will I be out in war?

As I step and breathe, I think I’m running out of time, of life. That when I decided to close my eyes, I’ll be forever asleep until a cold wind passed by. There was a heavy feeling comforting my wounded self. I’m starting to worry, to be afraid. Is this a hallucinations which is very common when you are  about to die? Am I really dying?
But no, I was wrong. He talked to me. He listened to me. He cared for me. He still loves me.
I started crying more than I cried before. He loves me. He still and will always be my Father, comforter and savior. He reminds me how he suffered on the cross to save me. He showed me His plans for me. He loves me more that I love myself. He is my Father and I am her child.

The good Lord, helped me walk through the fire and wire. He even carried me and healed my wounds. He eased the pain and worry in my heart. He made me new and renewed.

I was wrong. I was wrong that I’m all alone. He is there all this time. He never leaves. He never winked. He guide me.