Actually it is not the first day of my waiting. But surely this is the day that I am sure that I am now ready to wait for you.
I started praying for you months ago, but today I am strongly committed to really ask God to give you. I am now sure that you are the man I am willing to wait.
It is the very first time I really asked God for someone and it is so new to me. Waiting is really hard and it makes my feelings to doubt but knowing that you are the one I am praying for, I am really looking forward to that day that God will give you.
I remember when I heard from you that you like someone else, I felt disappointed and wanted to stop praying for you. How can I want you if you like someone else? Isn’t it hard? But there is a part of me whispering to just continue praying for you.
I continue praying with a hopeful heart. I stopped chatting with you. But I always check if you are online or if you have a new post. There were times that I badly wanted to message you and talk to you but I need to control my feelings.
Every night, I am asking God to make my heart right. I asked him to change your heart. But if it is not really his will, then change my heart and close any doors for us.
Until last day, I heard that you are not praying for her anymore. And honestly, it gave me hope. Here I am hoping again. And now, let’s see if it is really God’s will and if he really wants you for me.
For now, I’ll be just wanting you from a distance. I’ll be praying for you every day. I’ll be looking forward to that day that God will finally give the answers to my prayer.