In celebration with Breast Cancer Awareness month, Ghantoot Racing and Polo Club  organized ADCB Pink Polo 2016 last November 4 in the vast area of GRPC.

There is a massive number of participants, from exhibitors, sponsors, participants and visitors. There was a diverse culture and nationalities gathered as one. It was a fun and long day.

Our company Shine Tv Production was the official production team of GRPC which also allowed me to enjoy and be part of it.🙂

 

I’ll be looking forward to next year’s event🙂

 

I don’t know what went wrong.

I can still remember the very first time we talked to you on the phone and secretly told you that our friend felt the same thing, that you just need to show up and say I love you. Without her knowing, you came and there your love story begins.

I can still remember those days. Mahal mo siya, mahal ka niya. Ang saya lang hindi ba?

Naaalala mo pa ba ‘yon? Naaalala mo pa yung napakaraming beses na sinabi mong mahal mo siya and sinabi niyang mahal ka niya?

Nararamdaman mo pa ba yun sa bawat ‘mahal kita’ na sinasambit mo at sa bawat ‘mahal din kita’ na sinasagot niya?

What really went wrong?

I don’t know a lot about you. But I guess, I know you from my friend’s point of view. For her, you are someone she can count on. You are someone who always give what she wants and what she needs. When you have a fight, you are someone who will just be silent and will not argue. You are someone who will hug her when her heart seems to explode. Para sa kanya, ikaw na talaga. Ikaw na ang gusto niyang makasama habang buhay.

You became her everything and I believe you did the same way too… before.

I don’t know the whole story. I know my friend is not perfect like the way I hated her before. I thought that time, our friendship is literally over. Because I hate her in so many ways!  Marami din akong sinabing hindi magagandang sa kanya.

I know my friend is totally freak. Mapanakit siya, iyong kada kwento at tawa hindi mawawala ang kurot at hampas. Mahigpt siya sa pera, kahit ‘yong pera mo ay siya ang humahawak para daw may maipon ka. Mahigpit siya, may mga bagay na ayaw niyang gawin mo lalo na kung nakakaapekto sa trabaho at pamilya mo. Napakaselosa niya, lalo na kapag insecure siya. Alam kong marami pang hindi maganda sa ugali niya. You can still add lot of negative things about her because as her boyfriend you know her better.

Pero anong nangyari? Why the flow suddenly changed? Saan ba talaga nagsimula? You can’t stand with her attitude anymore? Then why it lasted for seven years?  Anong nangyari para unti-unting mabura ang bawat ‘mahal kita’ sa iyong puso at alaala? Anong nangyari para mapalitan ng pait ang saya? Anong nangyari para tuluyang maputol ang pa ninyo sa isa’t isa?

Bakit kailangang umabot sa ganito? Bakit kailangang maiwan siya mag-isa?

Bakit kailangan saktan mo siya?

Bakit kailangang magmukha siyang tanga?

Hindi ba’t mahal mo siya? At pinangakuan mo pa ngang habang buhay kayo magsasama?

I don’t see any valid reason for a person to be treated this way no matter what her shortcomings are. You know what you did. You know  it very well.

But you know what hurts more, she keeps holding on. She still believes that things will fall into its places again. She still entrust you with her future and forever. Damn! Alam mo ba ‘yon?! Alam mo ba lahat ng iyon?

What I feel  is nothing to what she is going through right now! What happened to you, man? Why you need to hurt her this way? Why you keep on breaking her heart? Why you let her to be this kind of miserable? Of all the people, why you?

Please, stop it! You’ve seen her at her worst and at her best but things really changed. Your feelings changed!

Be manly enough to let her go! Stop the bullshit of telling her that you are going to marry her now after all the things happened! Cut the crap! You don’t deserve each other anymore.

So please for the last time, this is the least you can do for her, leave her and let her move on! 

 

 

 

 

It has been a hell of a week.

All the things happening around is such a mess. I am starting to lose my mind. If I can only close my eyes and make it all disappear like it never happened.

I don’t know why I feel so sad, lazy, distracted and add other negative adjectives that you can think of. I really don’t know why. I find it hard to sleep at night, I even find it hard to think properly.

I’ve tried to look in the mirror every time I take a bath before going to work. I’ve been trying to figure out and at least see what is really happening to me. And as I look each day, it seems like my reflection is EMPTY and DRY. 

I’ve tried to look closely, I’ve noticed the tears running down like river.
I’ve tried to open my ears, I’ve heard the desperate scream.
And I started to ask, what is happening? What is really going on?

I found myself crying in the corner, crying at the top of my lungs.

My tears started to run out. I need to get up and ready myself to work. As I stepped out of the bathroom, I know damn who cares what you are going through.

I wear my best self-defense, smile. It helps me a lot. It helps me survive in a day. It keeps me going. It keeps me away from drama. It makes me look okay, at least.

As I continue to feel this strange feeling of sadness in me, I’ve been trying to still look on the brighter side. I still look forward to the beauty of the sun as it rise, like this is a new day to hope for. I’ve been trying to still appreciate the air that I breathe and even the wind that smoothly kisses my hair and skin. Optimism gives hope, at least.

But to stay in the manner of smiling and hoping is such a heavy rock that I keep on pushing. I am running out of strength sometimes but who else gonna be there for me? If I don’t help my self, to where and what would I end?

I know it will be a long and tough process but I need to keep going. The world doesn’t need to know everything about me but I should know myself.I should know that I still can give a good damn fight. That I can still figure it out one day. That I need to keep going…

to keep going!

Two different people
Two different worlds apart
barely know each other
Doesn’t have an idea to where is the road to forever

When his and her comets collide
The universe showered love like a river so wide
An arrow pierced their her hearts as one
And the journey of love has begun

They still have a long way to run
Like how much they love the rising and setting of the sun
It comes every single day
Like a promise and commitment that will surely stay

Her head rested on his shoulder
Their fingers closed to each other
Their eyes found peace at the waves of the ocean
And now their hearts sealed as one.

3 long years had passed since I got my Bachelor’s Degree. It was one of the best things happened to me. One of the greatest blessings I will always be grateful.

The most common thing people think, having aces on your transcript of record gives you an advantage of finding a better job. Which I am also guilty of. I thought reaching my goal in the media industry would not be as hard as I think of.

But I was wrong.

When I started looking for a job and having a lot of interviews, only then I realized, school records is not as important as gold. Yes, it affects your application but performance is the key.

Honestly, I had a hard time looking for a job in line with my chosen profession. I really wanted to pursue my writing, so I never had other target aside from all the media companies in my country. I had interviews but I always fail. Yes, I failed.

It was like a knife pierced to my heart.

I thought all my hopes will be gone. I thought it would be easy to just give up and accept defeat, but realization hit me like thunder. I am not even on the quarter part of my journey.

Since then, I started again. I composed my thoughts and myself.

Motivation always comes from within. If you don’t trust yourself, how other people will trust you, right? And that became my mantra. Since then, I started keeping in my mind not to be hard on myself. Take it easy. 

Right now, I am already 23 and still have a long way to run. I am an Account Executive in a Production and Advertising company, well not in the field of writing, but I guess it is not bad. What matters most is the art of writing is still in my heart. I keep on writing and reading. I still want to pursue my dream of becoming a writer but I guess the good Lord says, it is not yet the right time my dear. And I put all my trust in Him, he knows way best.

There are times I get frustrated and want to just skip the process but again, take it easy. Enjoy and live in the moment. It is not bad wanting more but we all need to undergo the process. It is along the way we will know what are the things needed for us to get there, to our destinations, to the fulfillment of our dreams.

So for now, let us not hurry. Life is too precious to be wasted.  Don’t let your struggles take away that beautiful dream inside you. It is not an easy journey but every part of it has a relevant part to your success.

Let us keep on dreaming. Keep on moving forward until the day we didn’t noticed that what we aiming is already placed in our hands.

See you there!

 

 

 

I’m staring at your picture one last time
Reminiscing in my mind all the moments you allowed me to own and call you mine
I’ve been doing this from night til dawn
But I am still not running out of words of my own

Everytime you pout your lips and hold my hand in the aisle
I can clearly recall how fast that makes me smile
You love to steal a kiss
Which I will surely miss

If we only met at the right time and place
Maybe we can still be happy like the old days
If it is not only this complicated
Maybe this time our hearts’ desire will be granted

How I wish to sleep and wake up next to you
Be drowned in your love and warm embrace too
How I wish to be your only one
And you, my only man

Isn’t it wonderful to be in love?
Feels like the best thing you’ll ever have
But love is not always like a fairytale
That every princess ends up wearing a veil

The truth is, it is not always a happy ending
The way you left me deeply hurting
But as much as I want to hate you
The more my heart cries out to love you
I can do nothing but let go of you
I am still thankful for once in my life I had the chance to be with you

Now is the time to say goodbye
My last glimpse in your eyes
You’ll be my best memory
The only character I will always love to remember in this sad love story.

 

It is already summer, and when it is summer BEACH is the first thing on the list. Who doesn’t love beaches? Is there anyone who hates living in the moment with just the water, sun, friends and family?

I love that kind of thing. And I guess, most of us enjoy that kind of time.

It is my very first time to be in a place outside my comfort zone. It is my very first time to go outside my country. And it is my very first to work abroad. At first, it’s really difficult but because my mom is also there, I at least feel relieved and somehow safe.

So to make the story short, I am now here in Abu Dhabi. A place far far different to the place I grew up with. But because of the familiar faces of every “kabayan” I somehow feel at home.

And because it is already summer here, who would not even dare to try the beach. One of the well know beach here in Abu Dhabi is the Corniche Beach which is just beside the road. Easy access, no hassle.

Since, it was my day off, me and cousin decided to go and swim. Girl bonding!🙂
We just went to the grocery to buy some chips then went there.

Conrniche Beach is very long and it has different gates where you can swim and relax. We decided to go to the Gate 4, there is an entrance which is 10dhs and if you want the umbrella tent it is only 25dhs. Not bad. Or if you don’t have budget, you can just stay on the sand like having a picnic.

And after that, you can now enjoy the water and the sun like we did.

Now is just the beginning of summer here so I am expecting more more beaches to visit🙂

No matter how busy we get, let’s not forget to enjoy what life has to offer. So go the beach and enjoy summer🙂 See yah!

 

I can stare at your eyes
Whole day.
Whole night.

I can see your smile
So wide.
So Pure.

I can listen to your voice
So sweet.
So firm.

I can smell your scent.
It stays.
It soothes.

I can feel your touch.
So gentle.
So calm.

I can describe you every second
No lapse.
No hush.

I can imagine you in front of me
Causing my heart beats fast
Wanting moments to last

I can do these things
I can say these words
I can do everything, everything…

But all these everything,
My everything
Well, you, my everything
Will always be in a distance

Where my feelings is in motion but hidden in disguise
Where intense affection covered in silence
Where your presence is so close yet very, very far

I can’t tell you how much, how deep
‘Cause only in a distance
I can call you mine
“Cause only in a distance
I can call you my love, my own

And only in that distance
I can just turn around…
Admit to myself how much I want you
How much I need you,
and worse how much I love you over and over again.

If i’ll write you a poem
It burns like a wildfire in the forest
Fast and quick
Won’t even have a single chance to speak

If I’ll write you a poem
It will be like a lesson in geometry
How every side, space, position and relation
resulted into destruction.

If I’ll write you a poem
It should be ended soon.
Like how fast a shooting star
Like how wishes never ever reach that far

If I’ll write you a poem
It would take your air
Like how you took away my sincerity
Like how you ruined my sanity

If I only…
If I only can write you a poem
It will be like an ice placed under the sun
Gone in a second
Forgotten a lifetime.

And if I’ll write you a poem,
I want to end it soon
Like how fast you owned my heart
And suddenly crushed into million parts.

I’m missing home.

When having a bad day, there is home. People annoys you instead of letting you breathe, making you forget what made your day a little tough.

When you are overjoyed, there is home. People celebrates with you whether there’s a treat or not.

When you are tired, there is home. People who make a fuss around you and makes you even tired.

When you are in struggle and pain, there is home. People who are just one text away and be there to share tears with you no matter how far or how late it is.

When you are feeling empty, there is home. People who are interconnected with you that slowly fills your cup again.

When you are hungry, there is home. People who cook your favorite or treat you to satisfy your hunger.

When it seems the world drags you down, there is home. People who always remind you that you are not alone.

And when you seem to forget who you are, there is home. People who sees all the bad and good in you and still choose to love you.

It is always good to be home.

And now my heart bleeds a bit that it is far from its home.