I don’t know what went wrong.
I can still remember the very first time we talked to you on the phone and secretly told you that our friend felt the same thing, that you just need to show up and say I love you. Without her knowing, you came and there your love story begins.
I can still remember those days. Mahal mo siya, mahal ka niya. Ang saya lang hindi ba?
Naaalala mo pa ba ‘yon? Naaalala mo pa yung napakaraming beses na sinabi mong mahal mo siya and sinabi niyang mahal ka niya?
Nararamdaman mo pa ba yun sa bawat ‘mahal kita’ na sinasambit mo at sa bawat ‘mahal din kita’ na sinasagot niya?
What really went wrong?
I don’t know a lot about you. But I guess, I know you from my friend’s point of view. For her, you are someone she can count on. You are someone who always give what she wants and what she needs. When you have a fight, you are someone who will just be silent and will not argue. You are someone who will hug her when her heart seems to explode. Para sa kanya, ikaw na talaga. Ikaw na ang gusto niyang makasama habang buhay.
You became her everything and I believe you did the same way too… before.
I don’t know the whole story. I know my friend is not perfect like the way I hated her before. I thought that time, our friendship is literally over. Because I hate her in so many ways! Marami din akong sinabing hindi magagandang sa kanya.
I know my friend is totally freak. Mapanakit siya, iyong kada kwento at tawa hindi mawawala ang kurot at hampas. Mahigpt siya sa pera, kahit ‘yong pera mo ay siya ang humahawak para daw may maipon ka. Mahigpit siya, may mga bagay na ayaw niyang gawin mo lalo na kung nakakaapekto sa trabaho at pamilya mo. Napakaselosa niya, lalo na kapag insecure siya. Alam kong marami pang hindi maganda sa ugali niya. You can still add lot of negative things about her because as her boyfriend you know her better.
Pero anong nangyari? Why the flow suddenly changed? Saan ba talaga nagsimula? You can’t stand with her attitude anymore? Then why it lasted for seven years? Anong nangyari para unti-unting mabura ang bawat ‘mahal kita’ sa iyong puso at alaala? Anong nangyari para mapalitan ng pait ang saya? Anong nangyari para tuluyang maputol ang pa ninyo sa isa’t isa?
Bakit kailangang umabot sa ganito? Bakit kailangang maiwan siya mag-isa?
Bakit kailangan saktan mo siya?
Bakit kailangang magmukha siyang tanga?
Hindi ba’t mahal mo siya? At pinangakuan mo pa ngang habang buhay kayo magsasama?
I don’t see any valid reason for a person to be treated this way no matter what her shortcomings are. You know what you did. You know it very well.
But you know what hurts more, she keeps holding on. She still believes that things will fall into its places again. She still entrust you with her future and forever. Damn! Alam mo ba ‘yon?! Alam mo ba lahat ng iyon?
What I feel is nothing to what she is going through right now! What happened to you, man? Why you need to hurt her this way? Why you keep on breaking her heart? Why you let her to be this kind of miserable? Of all the people, why you?
Please, stop it! You’ve seen her at her worst and at her best but things really changed. Your feelings changed!
Be manly enough to let her go! Stop the bullshit of telling her that you are going to marry her now after all the things happened! Cut the crap! You don’t deserve each other anymore.
So please for the last time, this is the least you can do for her, leave her and let her move on!