Sometimes, you need to experience the reeling pain caused by someone you love. You’ll feel the heaviness thumping inside you. You’ll see how much tears you’ll shed. You’ll hear the worst person you can be but at the end of all those heartaches, you’ll see how far your love can go for the people who means life to you. You’ll realize how their love can heal every broken pieces of you because that is what family can do. Loving you on your best much more on your worst.


Let’s continue to pray for the mourning people of Paris. Let’s continue to pray for their safety and may they find comfort in every support given. May the good Lord give them peace as they face the this nightmare.

People need the Lord.

I’m going to walk on this road again
The feeling is now far different
I can’t feel the air
I can’t hear the noise
I can’t see the colors
There’s nothing left but emptiness.

I step on the platform
People are rushing in
Someone stepped on me
Someone bumped into me
They recklessly passed on me

I walked again
I stood on that same spot
The very first time I cried in front of you
The very first time I indirectly say how much I’m going to miss you
The very first time I expressed my love for you

I ran fast
I want to escape the feeling
I want to hide the pain

My heart is thumping endlessly
My eyes can’t stop the shed of tears
I’m about to fall…

Once again.
I forced my eyes to see things clear
I look around
I was lost
I was alone


I guess…

It will never be the same again
You will never walk with me
You will never talk to me
You will never laugh nor cry with me
You will never protect me
You will never hold my hand

You’ will never be there for me
And worst, we will never be the same again.
Never again.

Another month had passed. A new chapter to look for, new adventure to enjoy and new challenges to overcome.

Let your past be your guide to be a better version of yourself. Strive harder to have a better and well-lived future.

May we have all the positivity and see the beauty of life in its finest.

Hello, October. Have a great days ahead!

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I’ve been in the state of depression for over a month now.

There are times, when I want myself to be all alone and just cry it out loud. My heart and mind is carrying tons of depressive thoughts which most of the time consumes me. I just don’t know what to do.

There are times when I’m in the middle of my work, I want to scream and cry again. It feels like my eyes never runs out of tears. I’m feeling its heaviness coming from my mind then flowing directly to my heart and makes life lonelier. I really don’t know what to do.

Then, there are times when I just want to stop breathing, when I just want my life to be taken away so I don’t need to suffer at all.

I don’t have someone to hold.

I don’t have someone to listen.

I don’t have someone to care.

Am I all alone in this chapter of my life?
Every day is a battle I’m facing. I was sent out in a war without an armor. Blood is all over my body, every arrow pierced in me, makes it harder for me to breathe. Will I survive another minute? Or even second of this day? Will all my wounds be healed and forgotten? How long will I be out in war?

As I step and breathe, I think I’m running out of time, of life. That when I decided to close my eyes, I’ll be forever asleep until a cold wind passed by. There was a heavy feeling comforting my wounded self. I’m starting to worry, to be afraid. Is this a hallucinations which is very common when you are  about to die? Am I really dying?
But no, I was wrong. He talked to me. He listened to me. He cared for me. He still loves me.
I started crying more than I cried before. He loves me. He still and will always be my Father, comforter and savior. He reminds me how he suffered on the cross to save me. He showed me His plans for me. He loves me more that I love myself. He is my Father and I am her child.

The good Lord, helped me walk through the fire and wire. He even carried me and healed my wounds. He eased the pain and worry in my heart. He made me new and renewed.

I was wrong. I was wrong that I’m all alone. He is there all this time. He never leaves. He never winked. He guide me.

Have you ever feel exhausted of your life? Have you ever feel tired of your everyday routine? Or do you have time to think of the things you missed? Or maybe your own self was already taken away without even noticing?
We wake up each day to go to work or school. We work hard to excel in our fields. We strive harder to have a better position, better life. We go home to finish all the take home responsibilities and that makes our life go round.
In our present generation, we are too much consumed by the world which makes our lives revolve around it. For you to survive, you need to compete, you must be on the top of the race. Because we believe, when we get there, success, freedom and idendity will reward us.
Sadly, most of us think that way. 

We are turning to be the kind of person who runs fast to reach our destinations, our goals. We are turning to be that person who can spend 24/7 on business appointments, company strategizing, paper researching, etc. We are turning to be the person who can forget everything in life aside from work and performance.
We are turning to be the person this world created us to be. We are slowly becoming obsessive on standards that takes away the freedom of life.

Everydays becomes toxic the way it shouldn’t be. We are not robots and slave of the world. 

“You do this, you do that.”

“Go there, go here.”
“Arrange that, arrange this.” 

Don’t you feel exhausted? Don’t you feel the need of an escape?

We are created to see the beauty of life, to experience the joy of having a family and friends, to enjoy the abundant blessings from up above and to be the person we were created for for the fulfillment of His will. 

That is somehow life should be experience and not wasted. Life is one of the greatest blessings ever given to us humans. We all know, this is temporary and we don’t know when all these things will end, so isn’t it fair to have a rest and forget all the stressing factors of life?
Since, we are young, we were exposed on how our lives should be experienced. That is why all this time, we strive harder and harder to make it to the top which is never wrong. We need to be the best of ourselves to reach our goals and live comfortably. But the problem comes along the way. In the midst of our journeys, we forget the essence of hardwork and perseverance. We are blinded by the misleading offers of the world. Our focus was pointed on the different directions of life which sometimes results to self-destruction, depression and imorality. 
Is that how our lives should be?
When we are going to realize how deep this world consumed our life, our selves?

How much time and effort are we willing to waste just to be on the top of this race?

Don’t let the standards of this world deprive you of life and even worse of your self. This world is a better place if we learn how to take one step at a time.

Each of us, has the right time to arrive in our own destinations. It is always best to experience the journey to its fullest ’cause it’s what makes you fulfilled and contented when you finally say ‘hello’ to your success.

Let’s keep dreaming.

Let’s keep believing.

Let’s keep pursuing our dreams.

And most of all, let’s not deprive ourselves from experiencing life to its fullness.

Have a break. Live a life.

I Still Love You

Posted: September 8, 2015 in Uncategorized
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I’m about to sleep when an idea popped out in my mind. A story wanted to be written but my eyes were too lazy to be awaken so I ended up to this thing. ❤

I still love you
That i can’t stop thinking of you
I still love you
That i keep on dreaming of you
I still love you
That my heart bleeds without the sight of you.

I tried.
I lied.
I hide.
I even denied.
But whatever I do it kills me more inside.

My heart beats for you
My mind speaks of you
Every little part of me still wants you
All of you

Day and Night.
Can I still keep your memory?
Even though your reply is just “SORRY”?

What will you do when the time that you’ve been waiting for so long has come while you’re still stuck in the middle of an opportunity?

Would you give up the first one?

Would you take the risk of the new one?

Or would you just gave up both?

It has been a year ago when I started working in this job. At first,  I thought  I won’t be able to stay this long but because of my colleagues, every single day got easier and happier. I found new family in them.

Working in this company gave me so much opportunity. In less than a year I was trained into three different accounts which exposed me to a wider field of experience. There were lot of opportunities came and passed by during my stay which never bothered me because I still enjoy everything I do.

Until this happened. Everything changed. It seemed the working environment I loved and enjoyed before became toxic. I started to find it hard going to work every single day. I started to have no care on my scorecard. I started to lose the eagerness to go beyond extra mile of service. And worst, I started thinking easiest and fastest ways to escape in this changed world.

I just don’t want to do this job anymore.

I was a Mass Communication graduate so I started looking for a job where I can practice my expertise. I passed my resume in every job opening I searched on the internet. But the luck seemed not so into me. Another month had passed and I’m still trapped in this job.

What am I gonna do? 

I stopped looking for a job. I took a rest in hoping that there is a great escape. I am now on training for my third skill set. I really enjoy learning new things but I don’t see myself staying for few more months in this job. I still excel in the class, I got higher grades on exams and role plays. That’s a good thing but not a consideration to stay.

While I was sharing my frustrations to someone, he suddenly opened that their company is looking for a writer and public information and events coordination. That was the same position he offered when I was on the earlier months of my job.

As far as I remember this was my exact words to him when he offered me that job the very first time: “I really want to be in that job, that’s actually my dream job but I’ve already started this and I enjoy what I am doing right now. Maybe after a year ago, if that same position is open again, I really want to grab that.”

And maybe I have luck in my tongue. This is what I’m waiting for, this will be my escape.

I became excited and wanted to be there instantly. This is it. A job with great compensation, a Monday to Friday shift, and I will be ale to practice my degree. I’M REALLY INTO IT. I WANT THIS!

But no work is perfect. There is no regularization. If they love your performance your contract will be renewed but if not, they are going to let you go. In short, there is no stability.

So now, I’m in the middle of weighing things. I really don’t know what to do. I need to make a firm decision and face the risk of choosing either staying or leaving for good.

Oh, God help me!

And have you completely forgotten this word of encouragement that addresses you as a father addresses his son? It says,

“My son, do not make light of the Lord’s discipline,
    and do not lose heart when he rebukes you,
because the Lord disciplines the one he loves,
    and he chastens everyone he accepts as his son.”[a]

Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as his children. For what children are not disciplined by their father?

If you are not disciplined—and everyone undergoes discipline—then you are not legitimate, not true sons and daughters at all.

Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it. How much more should we submit to the Father of spirits and live!

10 They disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, in order that we may share in his holiness.

11 No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.

Hebrews 12:5-11 (NIV)

Source: http://www.biblegateway.com

Every place has something to offer. And food is one of the best things a place could remind you of.

Last Saturday my friend and I went to ABS-CBN Store in ELJ Compund to buy a Kid Kulafu Jacket to support the most-awaited Pacquiao-Mayweather fight on the next day. It wasn’t my first time walking in there but it was the first time that food store caught my attention.

With its ambiance and wall decorations, how can’t you not be attracted? The place itself pull your feet, attract your eyes, and seduce your mouth. I thought I could resist but I fail. So my friend and I decided to try the store after buying the jacket.

The store has variety, from cupcakes to heavy meals. You can satisfy your all-day food cravings. Vanilla Cupcake Bakery and Cafe is located in Mother Ignacia St., Quezon Avenue, Quezon City near ABS-CBN ELJ Compound. The food ranges from Php80.00 to Php300.00, surely suits your budget.

Here are some of the photos:

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So guys, what are you waiting for? Can’t wait you guys to try it and share the same experience.