Patiently Waiting: Day 80

Months had been passed. And I guess we are still friends but not close enough. We never chat again. We never talk. I am always wondering what is new about you. Many times I wanted to message you first but what would I say? Thanks to the self control I have those times.

You are still in my prayers. I admit that there are times when all I want God to do is change my heart because it feels like it is just one sided love. But many are those days that I still trust God’s best for me and hoping that is you.

Recently I heard that you are praying for someone else…again. And again, it is not me. Then I ask myself why should I continue praying for you? My heart and mind is telling me that maybe I am not really an option. But I don’t want to dwell in my emotions for the my thoughts is not His thought neither His ways my ways (Isaiah 55:8). Waiting is one of life’s greatest and hardest battles especially when you feel like the one you are waiting for is already waiting for someone else. Sometimes it causes pain and disappointment but if we really put our hope in the Lord we’ll surely find greater purpose in waiting.

This time I decided not to make it my priority. I am still praying for you and I am still praying for God’s will in my life. There is still a lot fixing that needs to be done in me and I believe God is preparing me for something greater and beautiful. Let’s hold on to His promise (Jeremiah 29:11). I don’t want to pressure myself because you like someone else again which is not me… again. It is okay… it will be okay. Because I want this relationship to be right, noble and pleasing to God. A love that is written by God.

I am praying that God will reveal to us his good and perfect will.

 

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Patiently Waiting: Day 1

Actually it is not the first day of my waiting. But surely this is the day that I am sure that I am now ready to wait for you.

I started praying for you months ago, but today I am strongly committed to really ask God to give you. I am now sure that you are the man I am willing to wait.

It is the very first time I really asked God for someone and it is so new to me. Waiting is really hard and it makes my feelings to doubt but knowing that you are the one I am praying for, I am really looking forward to that day that God will give you.

I remember when I heard from you that you like someone else, I felt disappointed and wanted to stop praying for you. How can I want you if you like someone else? Isn’t it hard? But there is a part of me whispering to just continue praying for you.

I continue praying with a hopeful heart. I stopped chatting with you. But I always check if you are online or if you have a new post. There were times that I badly wanted to message you and talk to you but I need to control my feelings.

Every night, I am asking God to make my heart right. I asked him to change your heart. But if it is not really his will, then change my heart and close any doors for us.

Until last day, I heard that you are not praying for her anymore. And honestly, it gave me hope. Here I am hoping again. And now, let’s see if it is really God’s will and if he really wants you for me.

For now, I’ll be just wanting you from a distance. I’ll be praying for you every day. I’ll be looking forward to that day that God will finally give the answers to my prayer.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Encourage One Another

This article really encouraged me a lot and made me understand how important that we, Christians must be a vessel of encouragement to others. We don’t know how many people or even loved ones we have that has been comforted with discouragement and I believe it is our responsibility to share to them the comfort that we receive through Jesus.

May this article also encourage you to be encouraged and be an encouragement.

2 Corinthians 1:3-5, Encouragement


12/01/08

“Blessed by the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort; 4 who comforts us in all our affliction so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.  5 For just as the sufferings of Christ are ours in abundance, so also our comfort is abundant through Christ.”

Introduction

When life is tiring, when you are struggling with your sin, when family members aren’t saved, when bills aren’t paid, when school is difficult, when work is exhausting, when your health is failing, when your loved ones are hurt, when the future is unsure, and when a good friend leaves, it is easy to be discouraged.

Discouragement is a thief.  It steals your vitality, your zeal, your joy, your peace, and your contentment.  If discouragement dwells long with you, its friends will soon join.  Their names are fatigue, hopelessness, despair, self-pity, depression, doubt, and bitterness. Sometimes, discouragement can be so strong that you even don’t want to go on living.

Discouragement is dissatisfaction with the past, distaste for the present, and distrust of the future.  It is the result of blindness.  It is ingratitude for the blessings of yesterday, indifference to the opportunities of today, and insecurity regarding strength for tomorrow.  It is unawareness of the presence of God, unconcern for the needs of our fellow man, and unbelief in the promises of His Word.

If we have nothing to rely on, or we forget our blessing and look to our circumstances, then that is when discouragement begins to take hold. Instead, what we need is encouragement.  We need hope and peace and the knowledge that the Lord knows our troubles has great concern and compassion for us and is not leaving us unloved or uncared for.

Keeping your eyes on Jesus is the best way to be encouraged.  In Him, you can have comfort and peace and encouragement.  You need to find Him and His words, and by faith rest in Him.

  1. Be encouraged because God is a God of mercy and comfort.  Verse 3.  Blessed by the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort
    1. God is called the Father of Mercies.
      1. In the Greek the word “mercy” is oiktirmos.  It means compassion, pity, mercy.   And, it is something that is felt in the heart.  In God’s very heart, He feels mercy toward you.
    2. He is the author of mercy.  His mercy toward you brings salvation, the forgiveness of sins and deliverance from eternal damnation… and this, because of Jesus, because of His sacrifice, because of His shed blood for you.
      1. God is the God of mercy: Psalm 86:5, “You are forgiving and good, O Lord, abounding in love to all who call to you.”
    3. The word in Greek for “comfort” is paraklesis.  It means, exhortation, comfort, and encouragement.
      1. In fact, a form of this word, parakletos is used for the Holy Spirit. That is why the Holy Spirit is called the Comforter in the KJV in John 14:26: “But the Comforter, [which is] the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you.
        1. In the NASB the word is rendered “Helper.”
      2. All this shows you that God is a God of Comfort, of exhortation, and of encouragement.
    4. All comfort comes from God who is the God of comfort, of mercy, and love.
      1. It isn’t an angel, or a cosmic force, a pill, psychotherapy, or a quick and clever slogan that warms your heart and lifts you up.  It is God.
    5. But you may ask, “How is the Comfort received from God?”
      1. By faith – because God says He is the God of comfort, then you need to believe it and act upon it; that is, you need to trust Him and receive His comfort as He provides it.
      2. From others – God uses His people to comfort you.  When you have a problem doesn’t the Lord send someone with an encouraging word, a helping hand, or a shoulder to cry on.
      3. Through His word – reading and hearing – The words of God are beautiful and there for our instruction and encouragement.
      4. By the Holy Spirit.  He is called the Comforter. He indwells you.
  2. Take encouragement because God is there in your afflictions.  Verse 4 – “who comforts us in all our affliction . . . . so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.”
    1. Affliction (NASB) (“trouble” in the NIV) in the Greek is the word is thlipsis.  It can be translated as tribulation, trouble, anguish, persecution, burden, and, of course, affliction.
    2. Afflictions come in all different shapes and sizes.
      1. Sickness, financial difficulty, loss of a loved one, an unsure future, an auto accident.  But also, and this is something very important, affliction occurs in the heart in that place where we get frustrated, confused, and hurt.
      2. Why do we have afflictions?
        1. Because we live in a fallen world.
      3. And it takes a world with trouble in it to train Christians for their high calling as children of God and to carve upon their souls the features of the face of Christ.
    3. James 1:2-4 says, “Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.  Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” (NIV)
      1. So then, afflictions are a way of making you better.  And that is how they should be tackled: as the testing and strengthening of your faith — through the comfort and mercy of Jesus.
      2. You don’t have to worry whether or not He is going to take care of you.  He already has, (THE CROSS), He is currently doing so, and He will continue to care for you.  After all, aren’t you more valuable than sparrows and He cares for them.
  3. YOU SHOULD BE ENCOURAGED BECAUSE YOU CAN BE INSTRUMENTS OF COMFORT TO OTHERS.  Verse 4 “ . . . so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.”
    1. This glorifies God — to comfort others.
    2. Being used by God makes you feel good – that isn’t the only reason to help someone, but it does feel good when the Holy Spirit uses you to do good.
    3. You need to praise God that you have even had afflictions so that you can be able to help others.
    4. How many of you, because of a trial, have been able to help another better because of that trial?
      1. You see, God does not comfort you to make you comfortable, but to make you comforters.
        1. Lighthouses are built by shipwrecked sailors. Roads are widened by mangled motorists.  Hospitals are built by those who were sick.  Where nobody suffers, nobody cares.  When you suffer you learn to care.  That is why God does not comfort us to make us comfortable, but to make us comforters.
        2. But don’t forget, He suffered first…..
  4. You should be encouraged because the comfort you receive from God comes through Jesus.   Verse 5.  “For just as the sufferings of Christ are ours in abundance, so also our comfort is abundant through Christ.”
    1. This means that all comfort, encouragement, and hope that you receive through people, through the Word, or through circumstances are filtered through Jesus.
    2. Therefore, the comfort is pure, good, and right.
    3. It is received by faith.
    4. Where our sufferings are abundant, so is our comfort.
    5. This comfort is a spiritual comfort – received by faith, by active choice.

Conclusion

Encouragement is something that belongs to you as a Christian.  You do not have to live in a world of hurt and doubt.  You don’t have to live alone. You don’t have to weep in solitude.  You have the body of Christ to lift you up.  You have the Word of God to teach you.  You have the Holy Spirit indwelling in you who warms your soul.

You have the God of encouragement waiting to show you His mercy and love.

But you need to trust. You need to remember the Lord’s blessing.  You need to depend on Him.   You need to keep your eyes on Jesus and Him alone.

Jesus said, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest,” (Matthew 11:28).

In Awe

Oh, what a wonderful Lord and Savior
Clothed in all majesty and honor
Beyond the greatness in this world
A blessing given more than of a thousand fold

Far above everything
A God and author of everlasting
Glory shining and is never ending
Praise be to God, the holy being

God of ages crowned with many crowns
All creations before you bow down
The grandeur of your beauty
Be exalted, be magnified our God almighty

Jesus, the beautiful name it sounds
Your grace and love abounds
Your power and might trembles the ground
What a precious salvation only in you we found.

Uncertainties of the past

It was 8 years ago when an arrow of love was pierced through my heart. How can we exactly describe that feeling?

Beautiful. Romantic. Sincere. Young. Carefree.

It was one of the best feeling I have ever felt before. I was given someone who cares for me in sickness and in health. Someone who embraced the beauty and worst in me. My rain or shine companion, in laughter or in tears his presence is always present. A friend, best friend rather whom you can always count on, who always got your back. A person who despite of your past accepted you for who you are and who you are not.

He made me feel worthy to be treasured. And I was beyond grateful.

It was a long journey that I even dream of us in the future. I never picture someone else because I was so sure that all I want was you. You made me feel secure and certain. It felt just right with you.

Those years with you was a roller coaster ride of emotions. Like every relationship, it was not always a sweet and happy ones. There were days that we were having huge fights. We even argue on the smallest thing there could be. There were nights that we were in pain but those things too shall pass. We discovered a lot of things to each other as the years went by which made us more comfortable and confident.

Everything was just right.

Until one day, it became unsure.

It was the hardest part in a relationship. All the uncertainties started to consume me. I had to ask myself a thousand times why do I have to feel it, why it has to be with you. I thought it will pass, I thought maybe I was just thinking too much.

But I wasn’t. It was real and it was growing every single day.

I am sorry. Because you also have to suffer because of the uncertainties I felt. I promise it was not my intention to feel this way and make you feel this way. It was just became too much for me.

Too much that it was breaking me.

I have to leave before I totally lose myself. It was a selfish act but I have to.

I am deeply sorry.

We have to endure the pain for now. But I believe we will heal at our own time, our own pace.

Sorry for every pain that I have caused you. Sorry for breaking your heart.